Thursday, May 31, 2007

Hmmmmmm

What the hell can I blog about? Maybe that I can't stop singing the theme song from 'Weeds', little boxes, on a hillside, little boxes they're all ticky tacky little boxes on the hillside and they all look just the saaaame", or maybe that I have the mother of all headaches because I cut sugar from my diet, or how my leg brace got caught in the car door handle and I nearly ripped my leg off outside the post office, or how touched I am by all the emails and how it never ceases to amaze me how people can really care even if you've never actually met them, or that just now, when I went for food, I had a choice of beetroot or cereal yogurt in my fridge, because I need to go shopping, but tomorrow's Friday and I hate shopping on Fridays, or how I have a 5 foot box in the middle of my living room with holes cut in it, because I will go to any lengths to entertain my guinea pig when I am bored, or how this is the second time I've tried to grow wheat grass in seed trays and the second time blades have come up 3 inches apart, which means each seed tray has only managed to nurture a dozen out of 200 seeds and that makes me feel like a green fingered failure, or that I saw Pirates of the Caribbean and it was really good, but that I still don't fully understand what the hell was going on, especially that bit with the crabs and ship, or how I really want to go to the pub tomorrow with my friends for lunch, but social services scheduled a meeting, which means that I'll miss out on the usual brie and grape sandwich washed down with a Bacardi and coke, or admit that I'm copying and pasting all my dad's emails into a folder as a keepsake and I feel slightly guilty about that, or how I've become obsessed with hand washing all my bras, because for the first time ever I bought really expensive ones and I'm terrified the washing machine will eat them, or maybe I should just wait until something exciting happens before I blog, yeah, that's what I'll do, sod it.

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Cryptic

The person that I can not talk about? The situation that I posted about three weeks ago and then had to remove that post? The situation that I have been waiting to hear news on?

The news is bad, very bad, devastatingly bad.

That's all I can say here. If I am certain of who you are, or if you have commented here before and you are interested in the specifics, you're welcome to email me. If I have any doubt that you may know me in my non-virtual life I will have to decline anymore info, sorry.

The other option I have is to go password protected, or have another password protected blog solely for 'that' journey. I don't know what to do, the fact that I put the kettle in the fridge and the milk on the kettle stand this morning may give you a clearer idea of my brain right now.

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Family

Conqueror

Pfftt!

Jilleeeeeeeeee

"I'm not one to gossip but..."

Attitude

A break from the women

World of her own

Observation

I think I ran over his toes

Like the old days, family of 4

The new days

Riding on the back of the wheelchair

Love

Chatter


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On a par with drying paint.

Far be it for me to challenge David Fincher on whether or not his most recently released movie, Zodiac, should indeed be advertised as a thriller, but I can't help but feel cheated, surely a thriller is supposed to be, well thrilling?

Maybe his earlier success is his current downfall. Se7en always makes it into my top ten favourite movies; therefore I suppose I could blame myself for my disappointment, evidently movies, just like boyfriends, should never be compared.

What I'm struggling to understand is the mass of good reviews for Zodiac, do film critics have to spend so much time watching the likes of Glitter, that they eventually lose all concept of what constitutes entertainment?

"Sweet Jesus, some intellectual dialogue! It has Oscar written all over it!"

For instance, one broadsheet synopsis of Zodiac;

This movie sends you into the night contemplating, maybe even a little afraid. Bravo, Mr. Fincher.

Que? Contemplating and a little afraid of exactly how much popcorn got wedged in my bra maybe.

I'll never again complain when a true story or book is manipulated for movie entertainment and incidently Mr Zodiac, if you're out there, I think you should know you were a boring serial killer, really, whatever happened to, if a job’s worth doing, it’s worth doing well. Huh?

PS, the above criticism should be taken as light hearted banter and not a good reason for you to hunt me down and slay my arse.

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Dawn Chorus aka Shoot The Birdie

If I witness this scene before getting any sleep for the 14th night running, my cheese will seriously slip off its cracker.



I'm seeing Zodiac this weekend, I hope it has lots of entrails, I need to see entrails, they excite me master.

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Overstimulated

I'm sorry for the distinct lack of readable or anywhere near entertaining posts. I'm having problems controlling my thought process and even if I tried to write about anything other than what consumes my mind, I would just be drawn back into the direction that my brain wants to go, so to dodge the frustration, I'm not going to fight it in order to write words for the sake of it.

I'm ok, if not a little uptight and on edge, am heading in a direction that I know isn't good for me but don't seem to be able to put the brakes on. I have become rather emotionally involved and obsessed with the Madeleine McCann case, which is something I am very ashamed of, it feels as if I am looking for drama and morbidity, I hate people that do that. I know that I should just turn 24hr news off and step away, but I can't, I really can't.

I think I'm using the story as a way to totally consume my mind, to stop me from thinking about 'someone' before I end up I'm in a place where I can't function at all and although I know my obsession of choice isn't a healthy one, it's the only one that appears to be working, as positive as it may be, concentrating on the 'long time coming' resignation of Tony Blair just wouldn't do the job.

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Calling Luna

Luna, one would desire one to get in touch with one via email please.

And for the rest of you I have photos, because I have been spending time discovering photoshop, the photoshop that I have had forever but have never bothered to actually explore and now seems to be the right time because, la la la la la la la la it keeps my brain occupied in time of need.

Have a cracker of a weekend, or a crisp, or a ryvita, or something equally as crunchy.








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Did you have cheese for supper?

"I had this nightmare about ethnic cleansing and a group of us were running down a street trying to avoid being caught and then we ran into this house with a false wall, just like the one in Ann Frank and we were stuffing our cushions behind it"
"Cushions?"
"Yeah, they were wiping out anyone who owned a cushion, which is ridiculous, everyone owns a cushion"
"I don't own a cushion"
"Judas"

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Unwritten






















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Plastic Half Pint

Firstly, a huge thank you from the bottom of my cold, hard heart for the support in comments and emails, they may just have warmed it a little.

Secondly, apologies for having disappeared for a while, I've found myself in a slightly awkward situation this last week. To be honest, 'someone' isn't 'best pleased' that I've broadcast his private business to the internet, translation - he lost his shit with me, which he had every right to do and every right to presume he would be ok with it I did not have. I feel ashamed that my actions broke his trust in me, I've let us both down and like the adult I claim to be I need to accept responsibility for doing the wrong thing and respect his confidentiality in the future.

I won't be blogging about 'his' health. I'm sorry for spilling the beans and then going all mute on your arses. The present is full of confusion and turmoil, so maybe in the future when things have settled down in the family, feelings will change and I'll have permission to freely share the situation. Of course that may never happen, but rest assured the decision won't be mine and whatever it is will be respected.

So, as you can imagine, finding something of note to blog about has been near on impossible as my mind is pretty much concentrated on other things, except for maybe.....


What the hell happened to Laura?!

and possibly...


Blatantly trying to out sexy one another.

I will make the effort to update more regularly from now on, even if it means I have to make random shit up, or maybe torture you with my pointless photography.














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